Binged on frozen (and then baked) potato products I bought "for my husband". I shouldn't have taken the chance. I'm not recovered (wasn't recovered) enough for such a risk. I was calorie counting and restricting and all of these elements combined to pull me down. I didn't have any business doing any of the three.
Just texted my sponsor. I'll see what she says about telling my sponsees. 😕 I really don't want to let them down. ..... she just texted back. I should tell them and give them the option of getting a new sponsor. If it happens again I need to stop sponsoring for a while.
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Here are my thoughts after listening to AA's Joe Hawk.
This talk (see link below) is exactly what I needed. Thanks to a sponsee for this. I was starting to think I had something to do with my abstinence. I even said so out loud yesterday. I said I was in partnership with G-d. I forgot recovery was 100% a gift.
I am thinking now that recovery is like fire. No matter how hard *I* (Jen) rub sticks together, I cannot make fire. I need lightening from G-d. But I sure have the power to blow that fire out and be left with nothing!
That's where my "power" lies - getting RID of the gift of recovery. I have no power in getting it back.
http://www.recoveryaudio.org/aa-speaker-tapes/how-it-works-recovery-concepts
Just texted my sponsor. I'll see what she says about telling my sponsees. 😕 I really don't want to let them down. ..... she just texted back. I should tell them and give them the option of getting a new sponsor. If it happens again I need to stop sponsoring for a while.
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Here are my thoughts after listening to AA's Joe Hawk.
This talk (see link below) is exactly what I needed. Thanks to a sponsee for this. I was starting to think I had something to do with my abstinence. I even said so out loud yesterday. I said I was in partnership with G-d. I forgot recovery was 100% a gift.
I am thinking now that recovery is like fire. No matter how hard *I* (Jen) rub sticks together, I cannot make fire. I need lightening from G-d. But I sure have the power to blow that fire out and be left with nothing!
That's where my "power" lies - getting RID of the gift of recovery. I have no power in getting it back.
http://www.recoveryaudio.org/aa-speaker-tapes/how-it-works-recovery-concepts